why???

i know i have done d’ wrong way…i have decided to love you n finally i cant forget u im still loving u..i cant turn my love for the other…i never know when it’s will be end….morover i have been enjoy with this love…i fell happy altough i cant have it…im so happy have been know u in my life….just this…i write and write…tough im still confuse with my self…after graduated im still jobless..its make me stress…i believe Alloh will never give trial over than my capability…i think its will be over..n aget d’ happiness sucesfull and nice..

Puzzle

guys.. untill now im still jobless no job!!! i dont know why now im difficult to get job..are this because of my sin that always do God prohibition..or what!! i just believe and believe and tell to my self its the  best for me from the God..just it….

Im So Sad

i’m so sad guys…at first my good friends Joe has leaved me alone and followed by Dian…and then my heart become broken after i know i just in lose site. but after that i have decission that i will go without close friends may im too following my desire and emotion but i think its the best for me. i prefer think all just no special just like the other so can reduce if the fact show me that im not special for everyone. i hope Allah will forgive me about my decission and may mistake. i just believe what that has been happend to me is the best for me from Allah. distany of the God never wrong, God know whice the best for me……tough im felling sadness i wanna all be back like before but i think its impossible all has changed its irrevesible. the time will show what happend to my future… ijust wanna be happy make all be happy and beaty. i have many sadness on my life and dont want happend anymore…….keep smile n dont be stupid!!!!! smile and smile dont be sad anymore

My Hapiness Art

WHAT’S HAPPINESS ON ME!!!

1. My Mother and My Father who always full attentions on me. Whenever and wherever, they love me so much. Tough they can’t give me any charity but I ‘m so pleasant have parents like them. And my final destination just make them happy coz base on their story their background are so complicated and full of sadness. So I just want make them happy no sadness anymore.
2. My Sisters and my brother. Tough all of you can’t do anything to help me finishing problem that I have but I love you so much. I know all of you, your limited and your capability. Like my parent you and your family is my destination. I’d like to make happy all of you. I don’t want all of you fell sadness coz trouble in finance or else.
3. ONONK’z that contain of Imas, Indri, Ismi, Icoez, Ening, Eling and me. All of you are my everything, You are my sweet memory at Senior High School. Together with all of you are the pleasant time. I love all of u guys!!!! Tough I can’t repeat the time but I’m so happy with you. I don’t care what you think me as, that I know I’m happy at and with you.
4. Mbo Dirjo. Thanks you have make me continue my study at Junior High School without you my Mom wont me go to school.
5. Mrs. Ummi Mardewi thakns for your help so I can continue my study to the Senior High School and support me in university. You are my second mom but you are so kinds on me.i love you so muchhhhhhhhhhh
6. Mrs. Krispaliana Pujiwati. Thanks because of you I can following the study tour to Bali. And many things that you have done as long as when I was in senior high school. “Thanks for the milk when we are in Gua Lawa while I “Buka Puasa”
7. My ex girls and boys friend that I have love to you. Firstly, for you my sweetie honey my “Little brother” Deva Wisnu Batara Putra & Dyah ayu kencana wungu at YK town. Thanks for your love……
8. All my friends that I can’t mention one by one….

My BlackList guyZ

WHAT’S THE HELL ON ME!!!!!!!

1. Mr. Wigyo, Mr. Atmo and Their Group whose had been angry at me, because I get the people up at Ramadhan early. They shut me up closely like children do something without brain and so on. I really disappointed because when some guys with drinking condition entering mosque and disturb us while we are reading qur’an they don’t do anything. Moreover when one of them tell about that I take Re screed (Wudu) after touching with one of them, they believe it and all people call me “SOK SUCI” that so make my heart be broken. Happened at 2001
2. Mr. Karso and Mr. Mukhtar who bring new teacher to replace me in teaching the child in the mosque with the reason I’m not too good in teaching. I have so many difficult to make this “Pengajian” but they so easy hit me out. And further they don’t continue anymore……so just stopped a way. Happened at 2000
3. Tomo Budi Harsoyo. He is my classmate. He has spread lie news to all the student of SMU Purwonegoro that I’m the trouble maker. Calling out all ghost around there so make some of student be interrupted. He’s crazy really crazy.2002
4. Haensry Jemmy. Birth 25th October 1981. He’s really crazy too. He is my senior in Dormitory Sunan Giri. I don’t know what his reason why he so hate to me….. I think and as I remember I never do mistake to him. But he always seeks my weakness to publish in this dormitory. He always call me as un normal boy like “homo” or “hermaphrodite” but it’s ok never mind coz I’m closely with girl but don’t too be explored. When he was my roommate he’s crazy coming up. When I want to be interviewed and my document leaved in the room and I’d like to take it but he doesn’t want to open the door so I try to entry the room by window so he come out. I’m so unpleasant what he has done to me. One more, one day he spread many pieces of broken glasses around the room. What his mind??? Is he really crazy?? I don’t know that I know he is homo….hahahahahaaaaaa…. happened at 2005
5. Pratama Putra. 20 February 1984. At the first he is my close friend and I have thinking he is my older brother but silently he opens my diary and expose it in many event in the dormitory he uses my weakness as weapon to make me fall in my friends face. I can’t received it, that so hurt for me but he never say sorry. He thinks that what he has done is right so up to him. As long as he doesn’t asking sorry I won’t to forgive him. 2006
6. Rukhi fathi. He is so impolite person that I know as long as I stay in this dormitory. He is so cruel and proud of boy. He always discredit on me he ever tell me as corruptor when I was to be treasure in dormitory. I really dislike him so much and lazy to meet him anymore!!! Enough!! Happened at 2007
7. Nila Devi…Kick me from back stole my HP and Diamond Ring, as long as you don’t give it back, Alloh will give u sadness, illness, severing till u die…..

“Whats Up With Me”

gw ga tau apa yang gw rasakan saat ini, liburan kemaren seakan bagaikan liburan terindah bagi gw…gw bisa ngobrol-ngobrol lagi dengan dy, makan bareng, jalan-jalan…..tapi tu sebatas itu aja….gw ga bisa memeluknya ataupun menciumnya…..dy pun takan mencium atau memeluk gw…kesalahan ya????? mencintainya adalah suatu kesalahan….konsepsi cinta yang selama ini gw gembar-gemborkan bahwa cinta tak harus mendapatkan imbal balik dari orang yang kita cintai ternyata meletakan aku dalam posisi kalah dan menderita…..beberapa malam ini gw berfikir memang mungkin gw yang terlalu berharap dan mengejar khayalan….mengejar bayang-bayang hampa tanpa kepastian..dan yng pasti gw cuma berharap….gw juga bingung mengapa hari-hari kemarin gw diyakinkan pada suatu kepercayaan bahwa dengan mencintainya adalah suatu kebahagiann dan gw mrasa bahagya walau cuma bisa mencintaiya…..tp gw juga ga tau pasti akan kelanjutan kisah cinta ni…..gw sebenarnya pengen semua berahir dengan inidah..tapi gw ga tau..keindahan seperti apa yang gw inginkan….semua sekan baur…may ne yg disebut salah jatuh cinta…

cinta

ada yag baru dari cinta…..

tp bukan cinta laura……

masih ada cinta dihatiku….

pada siapa ya…….

apa? salah jatuh cinta…..knapa bisa?

ga tau ketika cinta berkata” akan kah kau kan menerima dia?”

akupun menjawab ” dengan senang hati!”

tapi gimana????

ga tau ntar z gw critain heheheheh

cinta tak bersyarat

mungkin selama ini kita tak meyadari kalo ternyata cinta atau kasih sayang yg kita berikan ternyata tak ikhlas alias bersyarat. disadari tak disari kita ternyata mengharapkan balasan atas perhatian yang kita berikan. termasuk cinta kita terhadap tuhan. kita taat beribadah ternyata ada maunya, kita tidak ikhlas beribadah terhadapnya. kita menginginkan Dia memberikan balasan terhadap kita. alih2 kita tidak mau disiksa atau sebgainya. btw, its up to u…

Me….Mine….About me!

I’m the guys who hate the cruel, sadness and violence. And there are many the others that related with character that I’ve mentioned before. I’m only the small things in this world. who have dream to be the great person. Realized or no, I don’t care about that. I just do and do to realize that with all the power that have been given by the God as the support.

I always thanks for God because God and the only God……I always motivated reach all dream. Really there are so many things that I want to tell you. But sometime felling sorry I can’t be. But I’m kinds of guys who open up with new friends because my hopes I will get friends minimal one in a day. More have friends mean making rich our knowledge understanding the other behaviors. By reading my writing all of you will know who I’m.

I miss all of u guys!!!!c’u

The Trully Love

 

 

Talking about love

So easy don’t think it so complicated and difficult

If we are felling comfort do that

But if we are not comfort anymore

Why we still sanding there

Go….go…and go…

There are so many loves in another place

That may be in waiting us since a long time

So don’t be frustrated if your love leaving you

Be smart may be they are not the best for us so leave us

Remember God know what the best for us

You should manage your love

Don’t love that manage you

You have given brain and mind from the God so use it for maximally

I believe we have been managed

Whoever who will be our couple

Try to accept them

We are not perfect guys so we should complete each other

But the point

Love is comfort

My suggestion if u don’t comfort don’t do that

If by lonely make you comfort choose it

Don’t hear about the other

The other just can speak and judge

They don’t know our felling

Our life should be happy….

Remember that….

Problem…..should have…

If someone don’t have problems its mean they are crazy

Problem is the way of the God to show God’s attention for u

So don’t misunderstanding about that

God love us so much more than all the guys in this world

Looking for the truly love just God

Looking for the imaginer love looking human who make u comfort

Peace….in love….

Don’t felling pressure under the love

Believe God want you be happy…..